We got some of our engagement pictures back. I look fat. Why is it that I look in a mirror, I see myself in real life and I look perfectly proportionate THEN someone takes a picture of me and I look fat? It's so detrimental to one's self esteem. I already have "issues" in the appearance department, you know, being a female and all, I think it's a predestined requirement for us, but when I see pictures that I don't like of myself, and I know I am my worst critic, it makes me think, damn, is that how I really look? Is that how people see me? The girl with the 4 chins when she smiles? The girl with the huge tits? Ugghh, so depressing.

There are a few that are kind of cute but what the hell do you do with engagement pictures anyway? I mean, I would never send them out to people. Maybe our parents or my best friends that have seen my fat in all shapes and sizes. Oh well, maybe I'll find one I like, crop it, air brush it, frame it and put it on the wall...? Sounds like a good idea to me!

So Saturday is the dreaded Engagement Party that we didn't ask for...ha ha, I'm such a bitch! It should be fun, I guess...whatever. I won't go on that rant again. I'll just leave it be until afterward. I'll post more next week about it. I know you're all on the edge of your seats!

I can't believe it's Thursday already. Yayy!